I'm really sad about this. I was planning on going along on Alex's Germany trip in August, we even had me registered and everything, but reality hit us this morning and we realized that we just couldn't afford it. I think when Alex suggested that we pay for it using the credit card we just paid off I decided that it just wasn't meant to be. I'm really bummed. This is the second time we were planning on going to Germany together and the second time we couldn't go because we just couldn't find the money to go. The only difference about this time is that Alex is going for sure.
Alex is right about this not being his only Germany trip...we've even talked about moving there for a few years, but I'm less excited about moving there than I am about just visiting there. The last time I was in Europe I spent three weeks there and I couldn't wait to come home after two, I can't imagine how homesick I would be if I lived there. It's not like I don't have family over there, but I barely know them, I've met my grandmmother once and she doesn't speak to my mother...nor does she speak English. I think my aunt is a wonderful person, but also doesn't speak English. Plus, you would think after six years of German classes I should be able to speak the language...well I can't, and I'm not all that anxious to learn right now either. Yes, I'm horrible...I think I'm just upset that I can't go to a place that I really do love and my husband gets to go wthout me.
Today is a crappy day, plus it's raining so that doesn't help...and I have to go to work, I certainly don't feel like working today...
